I learned something
very special today.
For quite a few
days, I admit, I am being really bad. I have a very nice friend who got
committed to again, a very dear person of mine. Somewhere, I was feeling a hole
inside of me - kind of a hole that needed a person to fill. I was feeling
envious of the happiness the two of them share. It isn't that I am upset of
something but I was just wanting someone dear one too.
Anyways, though I
was happy, the void existed.
Today, I met someone
- Gaurav sir (name disguised so you won't identify it unless you are the person
himself)… It is not that I met him for the first time but I did meet him after
a LONG time. In this long time, there had been several things that I had been
meaning to tell him… there were moments of anger… of frustration… of a little
worry and most importantly… a lot of laughter and smiles from the memories of
time before that.
I keep thinking to
myself that it has just been 4 months since I have met Gaurav sir but in this
little time, he has become someone really important to me - he affects my
priorities and today itself, I found out - he affects my hunger… For he was
here, I didn't take lunch and I didn't feel hungry at all!
I look back over
these 4 months and I gather that there is if not much, but a significant age
difference and yet, we have talked a lot. In all the talks that we have, I
don't speak much… and mind you, I am a very talkative girl. I like to listen to
him. Every minute that I sit beside him, I feel I have gained something that I
didn't have before. Even when he is silent, I learn how to be such passionate
about one's work.
I have learnt to
have fun, to see life from a different perspective, faith, joy, passion for
work and don’t know what else from that one person.
I would just say
that he is one person I wouldn't ever want to lose contact with. And having
said that, just to show some concern, I am also penning down a story inspired
from him.
Today… like I
mentioned, I met sir after a long time. It was definitely some great moments.
But what was even special was a single moment when he said something - don't
get your horses running ;)
I was just speaking
on and on and mostly nonsense because I had to say sorry to him for something
and I didn't know how to start the topic. Anyways, in nervousness, I kept
speaking on and on. I kept complaining about some things but to be honest,
those things never bother me, not anymore at least.
And then suddenly,
sir said that it seemed to him that I was really angry.
Okay, I gather that
this is nothing but to me, it is a lot.
There is someone I
keep my ears on - yes ears! I am always there to listen to him speak and here,
he listens to me and actually gives it a thought. I really felt amazing with
that thought.
The amazing thing
was - I felt really happy. For the rest of the evening, I have been laughing
and dancing to myself. I really don't need anyone else. I am also feeling
loved. Yes I know Gaurav sir is far from being someone special in that sense to
me and he isn't. Very honestly, that void is there and it is only time that
will fill it when the correct person comes. But from this incident, I realized
that I need to love myself to feel loved and it doesn't matter how someone else
sees me or for that matter, if someone else wouldn't see me at all.
You see, Love isn't
only of the kind of having a boyfriend (or a girlfriend). Love is an expression
of happiness… if you happy, you are in love - simple! And today, I have
realized something really important - I am in love <3 p="">
