Echoes...

Well... memories.. a brand new label just for the person I miss the most in this world... my granny... she's been more than mum to me!!

Well.. no I am not sulking or senti.. I just dont want to loose the countless memories I have of her... and just for that sake... I will try and write as manyy as I can of her... and inshallah... they will be my strengths!

I remember telling her I had an ice cream and not giving it to her :P ... I remember seeing her sit at the threshold and cut vegetables ... I remember her cooking food.. I remember her telling me tales I will never hear again... I remember her praying... I remember where she hid the pack of toffess and how much we loved eating them... I remember her telling my dad not to pamper me so much.. I remember her telling me tales out of a word... her combing my hair... her taking my side... waking me at 3 to jus ask me its 3...

and they are countles...

I just tried to write what all I could see in front of my eyes immidiately... but honestly it will be impossible to write all...

Its been 3 years since I havent seen her.. spoken to her.. heard her... though I have forgotten your voice Eja... I always will remember that you want me to be a good girl and I also know you are looking and therefore I will be a good gal...

You are there with me in whatever I do... and I am truely blessed in this sense..

Oh.. How I wish you were here with me... wish I had been a better grand-daughter.. there was so much we were yet to do... and now its all left unspoken and undone...

"...oh how I wish you could see
everything that's happening for me..."

Honestly, hope you are glad wherever you are...!
Missing you...

and the words you said will always be with me.. like the Echoes... Echoes that come from the heart!

Thnks for making me what I am...

It feels really weird you know when just in one day you are told that you are a great human... people wake up.. I am no 'angel'... I heard it from few while other's wrote that I am really good...

As a matter of fact.. I really donno what I do it right or wrong.. I do it for I want to do it... I do it for my heart wants me to... and eventually if it turns to be a good deed... Its just coincidence...

Well.. I am not trying to anyway show that I am good or bad... but I want to tell a very special person.. actually 2 of them.. the 2 angels of my life.. thnk you for being there.. I am what I am just because of them.. they are so good that I keep trying to reach their level and possibly only that makes me good...

I am what I am just because of you... and to be honest I dont still am what I should be to match you.. I wont be that ever.. but I will never stop trying!!

Thnks!

India to host Common Wealth Games...

Okie.. I know that you all know this and so this is no reminder or a news caption... actually this is totally opposite to the heading... (fish.. do I sound like Uday and Vanshika :P :P)

Well then... the thing is everyone knows that Common Wealth Pres is there... I knw it a little more for he lives across the road :D

So well as u all must know that this dude has asked the PM to interfere in the arrangements for the common wealth games.. and if you are in Delhi.. you must knw that THERE IS NO PREPARATION...

I mean.. guys / gals jus think of it.. if this dude gives a report that we cant have the games.. and the venue is changed.. how much disgrace it will be to my country... WHY THE ****** hell arent the politicians understanding that this is unfortunately not the time to make money or controversies...

Any party... I say even if it had to be Mahatma Gandhi.. even if he gives a statement that 'sorry we cant have the games' .. even he should commit suicide before saying somethin like this...

A country with 120 crore population... 7th largest in terms of land.. a country of rivers... the country known of being the best host... we ve been in top 5 produces for various kinds of food.. and we cant host one **** game???

Its worse than giving the keys of the country to any terrorist group ...

Till date if you say - I am an Indian... you may be discriminated on the basis of being a lil backward but your head is held high for you are an Indian.. born in a country which gives the best education.. a country known for its talent.. its culture.. heritage.. and God forbid if the games are called off.. and u say you are an Indian.. what is someone asks me 'oh the same India which couldnt host one game??' ...

You know what.. I love my country and I love it beyond limit.. bt its no longer my country.. its all eaten by **** ... no invader... no outsider.. no imperialist did that bad to the country as much done by people inside.. and the great thing is WHO WILL HEAR??? PEOPLE DIE.. who cares?? COUNTRY GETS BAD NAME.. who cares?? BUT POCKETS NEED TO BE FULL!

A sweet short thing...

Pata hai... I have always told something to my friends and everyone I knw.. whenever they find themselves at the end of something and its difficult for them to get over it...

"Whatever you shared.. all moments you loved.. are yours.. you can't undo them.. and no one can take them from you... not even the friends or that special person with whom those memories are... and if you see it all ending.. dont make it sour.. leave with a smile and with happy memories.. whatever it was.. its all good.. and now its upto you how much longer you want it to be good!!"

Okie.. I believe that's a big piece of advice but I must say people this works..

Things aren't as you want always.. and to be honest they never will be.. why should they be? Things come.. things go.. life is how you react to each and everyone of them...

In some interview.. Shahrukh Khan said that if you want to tell a joke to God.. tell him your future plans :P :D
And this is reality..

Well I write this.. No I am not upset or anything... I write this because I tried it with a few of the people who were really important to me.. and it worked.. I felt great today after really long!! :)

So trust me.. I am not saying it for I read it somewhere.. I liked it and I want to have that 'gudie - gudie' image.. but because everyone who reads this will be a special person to me and so I want you to be glad!! Stay Happy!

Sufi tere pyaar main..

teri yaadien mujhe tadpati hai tarsati hai
mere dil ko sanam dhadkati hai behkati hai
tu kabhi kisi aur ki hona nahi…
jaadu tere ishq ne aisa kiyaa…
sufi tere pyaar mai ban hi gaya…
sufi tere pyaar mai ban hi gaya…

tu meri chaahatein
meri raahatein
meri aashiqui…
tu meri aarzoo
meri justajoo
meri bekhudi…

tu meri dhadkane
meri zindagiii…
meri palke kabhi bhigona nahi
tu kabhi kisi aur ki hona nahiii…
sufi tere pyaar mein ban hi gaya…
sufi tere pyaar mein ban hi gaya…

Ooo… Ooo…

apni tanhaayien
ye viraaniyan
chalo baant le…
apni aawargi
deewangi
chalo baant le…
bin tere na lage
kahi ab jiya…
ger ke khwaboon ko pirona nahi…

tu kabhi kisi aur ki hona nahi…
sufi tere pyaar mein ban hi gaya…
sufi tere pyaar mein ban hi gaya…

tere yaadein mujhe tadpati hai tarsati hai
mere dil ko sanam dhadkati hai behkati hai
tu kabhi kisi aur ka hona nahi…
(tu kabhi kisi aur ka hona nahi)
jaado tere ishq ne aisa kiya…(aisa kiya)
sufi tere pyaar mein ban hi gaya…
sufi tere pyaar mein ban hi gaya…
(sufi tere pyaar mein ban hi gaya)
(sufi tere pyaar mein ban hi gaya) ban hi gaya…
(sufi tere pyaar mein ban hi gaya) ban hi gaya…
ban hi gaya….
(sufi tere pyaar mein ban hi gaya)

Why does it ache??Oki

Okiezz ppl.. this is no senti post or anything.. bt a frnd.. balki the Doctor Dude.. said something really cool and am thinking abt it for really long bt I dont have an answer.. so I thought I better let it be on the blog and anyone who knows an answer can help me..

A heart's function is just to pump blood.. then how can it ache??


Why does seeing a person you care for in pain... even the slightest of pain hurts you...??
Why does seeing the one you care about not seeing you causes you to be angry??

Seeing him with someone else makes me angry.. seeing him not smiling makes me upset.. seeing him makes me smile through the tears...

Ps - Him is no person and this is not supposed to be in 1st person but just to make it convinient.. I did so... so dnt think am senti or anything... and again tag me as the drama queen.. I am very much normal and stuff...

bt I would really wanna knw.. when God made a heart.. he meant it to pump blood.. then how did this thing start that the person u lov resides in your heart??

My Favourite People...

With the great idea frm a fb friend (Satinder.. thnks dude)... I decided to make a list of all the people that I really love.. the people who make my life worth living each day...

Ps - none of them are my family.. they are just the people I have met in this life and I really cherish

The top - most list -
Nurav
Adi
Professor Langdon
Jack Dawson
Severus Snape
Albus Dumbledore


People.. I wish I knew or was more with..
Lihas
Ankit
KBI
Shivalika
Sanjana
Sariga
Ranjana
Krishna
Esha
Bala
Anchal
Bhuvi
and others at Kuwait


My Besties... Today and Always...
Shivangi Raheja
Shinjan
Javed


Friends I cant live without...
Karishma
Sneha
Mehran
Dinesh
Chini
Jayi
Preeti
Sreejith
Harsh
Omkar
Srujana
Sheethal
Anneesh
Anil
Pubali
Garima
and my entire Hogs family!


My Daily Friends... the ones I hang out with :D
Ishita
Pallavi
Rimjhim
Shreeya
Nancy
Shubhangi
Shivangi Chopra
Adina
Kadambari
Nazuk
Vanshikha (sry abt the wrong spelling..)


I will never forget...
Pooja
Jona
Mehak
Twinkle
Surabhi Sharma
Mallika
Palak
Surabhi Sadana
Monica
Dikshika


My Extended family -
Tublu
Bhabhi
Dhekun
Mausi


My first family on net!! -
Divi
Sahil
Nisha
Raj
Anand
Jez
Roshini
Reena
Khushi
Mariyam
Afreen
Nimrah
and the entire DTV ppl...


My IF lil cosy hub -
Suchi
Daisy
Ika
Suhana
Ananya
Ramya
sim_indian


My Classmates -
Ashna
Palak
Mehak
Sofa
Kriti
Sonalika
Akshar
Rachit
Karan
Swami
Troska
Sarvesh Sethi
Akshat
Aditi
Kunal
Rishabh
Naila
Shruti
Radhika
Sagar


My FB frnds -
Tika
Anshul
Prahlad
Satinder
Ashish
Mohit
Marighnami
Akhil
Abhinav
Fida
Sourangshu
Sagar Suri
Viraj
Apramit (sorry abt the spelling)
Mayank


okie... pps... I dnt say these are all... These are all I remember... THANK YOU ALL THESE PPL FOR MAKING MY LIFE SO GR8... Luv ya all

Mere Humnashii

hey hey hmm hmm hmm hmm
hey hey hey hey hey hey
la ra ra hey hey hey hey hey.......
(mere humnashi teri dilbari
yahi shaayari meri roshani) - 2
hai har ek shaam dhuli dhuli
hai har ek subah khuli khuli, zindagi
haan meri zindagi, meri zindagi
mere humnashi teri dilbari
yahi shaayari meri roshani, meri roshani

(jhuki jhuki jo aankein hain
thami thami jo saansein hain) - 2
suno to iname kehani ki kitani baatein hain
ye gagan dhara ke jo paas hai
tera roop hai meri pyaas hai, zindagi
haan meri zindagi, meri zindagi
mere humnashi teri dilbari
yahi shaayari meri roshani, meri roshani

(kabhi kabhi yoon lagata hain
yahann wahaan sab achchha hai) - 2
khushi mein pagala jaata hai, dil wo bachchha hai
ye jo preet hain, ye jo pyaar hain
yahi dhadakano ka singhaar hain, zindagi
haan meri zindagi, meri zindagi
hey hey hey ... la ra ra ra
ho ho ho ho... la la la la la
hey hey hey... la la la la hey hey hey

(chupa chupa jo sapana hain
isi mein to ghar apana hain) - 2
ye jo apani tupani hai, yahi duniya hain
ye ghata, fizaan aur ye chaandani
hain hami se ye dilkashi, zindagi
meri zindagi, meri zindagi
mere humnashi - 2
teri dilbari - 2
yahi shaayari - 2
meri roshani - 2
haan hai har ek shaam dhuli dhuli
hai har ek subah khuli khuli, zindagi
haan meri zindagi, meri zindagi
meri zindagi, haan meri zindagi
hmm hmm.... meri zindagi haan meri zindagi

Daya

I really dont know what I am doing.. I dont feel like anything at this moment... I dont believe that it can be true... NO IT ISNT TRUE!

In my memories
I can still see
Each and every moment together
I can still remember
The past so tender
And the life in each and every day

The flowers in the hall havn't been moved yet
The paintings in the room hvnt been taken down
And as I wait for you to come home
And take me in your arms
I realize that you're gone,
You're not coming bak anymore
Forever Gone

I still feel you
And you linger around
And i pray that you'l come bak
I Love You
And to live, I need you.
You're the only thing I lack


Here I am
Still waiting
For you to come bak..
And I know
That you're Gone
But I cant bury the past..

And I'm still waiting
For a million years
Just to be bak in your arms again
And I'll keep on waitin
For many more years
Hopin to be bak in ur arms again.

Okie.. I havent written this.. I found it in a frnd's blog and I liked it alot.. so I took it without asking her and the best part is that she hasnt written it either..
bt it speaks of how we all felt about Daya.. Daya..dnt do that again dude..

Paul Paul

well.. here is something dedicated exclusively to Shreya Paul... who know her.. will know this..
the thing (whatever it is..) is totally by Shivam of B section.. I just took the idea and added a few words... So here it is..

Paul Paul
get into the hall
Paul Paul
never hits the ball
Paul Paul
grow a little tall
GO Paul...

Paul Paul
dont you call
Paul Paul
shopping at the mall
Paul Paul
hits the stall
and there Goes Paul...

Paul Paul
getting up the wall
Paul Paul
thinks so small
Paul Paul
enough for one and all
here we have Paul...


** No harm meant..
*** Don't read it in frnt of Shreya for then your safety not guaranteed!!

As if it all matters...

You know what?? Yesterday - 2nd August 2009, I had a great time... tagging all friends on fb to Friendship Day wishes... and wishing those who were friends, close friends, best friends, aquintances and even whom I didnt wanna but I thought why nt...

But today... Today is different... It doesnt matter even if u wish or not.. you know why?? A really wise person once told me (actually the whole class) that we still dont have the status to be a friend.. and he was correct... when I am this tiny, what can anyone benefit outta me?? I dont have money, I dont go to bars, I am just a little tiny probably even ugly girl who is much more into books than gays...

And trust me this all is what matters...

You make a friend, no matter how nice you be... one day, they are gonna totally forget that even you are a human and can have certain problems and just because you were loud and they didnt bother to understand, they will fight with you, make you feel like dirt... look at you so badly that you feel why you existing... then they talk rude to you, but they are still good... they ask friends to take things from you and give them to use and you just say why cant u ask urself... and again they throw things at you BUT they are good!!

I am no gay... no alcoholic.. non smoker and no hook ups either.. probably thats why I am so outta the crowd.. and the best part is that people who dont do these either... make you feel angry so much that you forget that these are the people who really care for...

They will stand by you till you are in authority or lime light.. and then... they ditch you... they will give you 10000000000 bad qualities in the person you called best friend and now who is a bad girl but they turn into the same bad girl and say why are you stuck up with old things...
They wont understand that why are you so much in love with someone... they just know that all they have to do is make fun of that person without knowing him / her. I mean really is this friendship all about??

If a person is special to me.. all you do is - how can you even talk to him? and walk off... yea.. I give so much of a damn for such friends...

They wont talk to you for they are high enough.. they dont mind going corridoors away but if you are in the same corridor and even if they come to the room you are in... they are so busy that they dont even see you seeing them... longing for just a hi... but when you meet them in the corridoor and you dont say hi.. they will say 'She's got attitude'...

If this is attitude... yea I have it and lots of it..

and now.. I dont know if the meant people are reading it or nt... bt I want to tell this to someone and that someone is clever enough to know that this is for her... that SHUT UP!! YOu know what you talk really big about Pinky turning bad and stuff... well atleast, she doesnt say a hi to me when she is bored... When you call someone a friend, you dont need them when your other friends and not around and you are bored.. you say that I m nt talking to this girl or that.. and you critisize but the fact remains, whatever she is, she accepts it... what about you... you dont even accept your own self to others...

and then you say people ditched you?? Yea sure.. and what did you do? And foremost.. STOP speaking about any of the people that matter to me... You dont understand them for you are not meant to... So just let me be...

And finally... I hate to think that a person who says that you can call and we can still be friends, calls and says a job for my dad...

sometimes I wonder, such amazing friends I have... I dont know where it all went wrong.. but I so much wish it ends soon!! I am so fed up